One sad puppy

Photo courtesy of Paul J Whaley on Flickr

I want more than anything to be asleep right now but I can’t get comfortable. It hurts to lay down, it hurts to stand up, it hurts to sit. I did some damage to my tail bone last weekend (long story involving me –the klutz-, snow, borrowed heels and a slippery staircase). The pain does not seem to be easing up no matter how much Advil I pop. The bruises are a hideous combination of black, blue, purple and red. So here I am, exhausted and back to my old insomniac tricks with the new years blues or some bullshit like that. I’m all emo and self loathing and woe is me. I’m all weepy and lame and lonely. I’m just not feeling good; not mentally, not physically, not emotionally. Sometimes I wish that I could run away from the thoughts in my head, but they chase me. In my dreams, they haunt me. No escape. I am so damn uncomfortable.
I keep fantasizing about staying home by myself on New Years eve, ordering takeout and falling asleep well before the stroke of twelve. In fact, I may just do that.

9 thoughts on “One sad puppy

  1. Tailbone injuries suck, hopefully y’all don’t need one of them donut pillows to sit on… or maybe one might help…

    Everyone is outta town for new years, it may just end up being John and me… which I wouldn’t really mind.

  2. Aww lover, I fell off a curb onto my tailbone once and I understand! Also, if it weren’t for my boyfriend I would be uber depressed always. I always fantasize about living alone like Carrie Bradshaw but really I don’t think I’d survive. I admire you!

  3. Jenni! I ran into Lianne last night when I was in Vancouver and she told me about your “accident”. I hope you’re feeling better!

  4. Hey Jenn!

    I hear ya on the horoscope/astrology thing. There’s something to be said about character traits and how your daily horoscope seems to play out. I always check my horoscope as well, whether I believe or not. I think its a comfort factor and presents some hope.

    I got a kick out of your winter survival guide and I think a mani or pedicure may help the winter blues as well.

    Happy Holidays and all the best in 08′

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